real life lighting:
found this gem
i hate those all-consuming feelings of sadness/rage/hurt/frustration/all of the above. i know it’ll all be okay, but not during those moments, and when the feeling passes i feel stupid for ever having the feeling.
i hate that eight words my mother said to me over a year ago still slice my entire being into pieces. i hope she got what she wanted, because i was broken that day.
i know it isn’t true but i just wanted to write it because it’s how i feel.
Hello med student at her 25 here with former classmates getting paid in a real work and stuff.I feel old.But seriously now, you don’t like acting anymore? :/
it’s not that i don’t like acting, i just can’t do it as a career. too much stress/rejection for my already damaged brain/heart.
in related news, the photo editing on iOS 8 is fantastic.
You never forget the first time you heard Benedict Cumberbatch’s voice. It’s like seeing a cat open its mouth and bark. It’s like a skinny young white boy singing belting out gospel music in a robust operatic voice. It’s like being at the pet store and hearing “hello” in a deep voice and turning around to see a lizard pressed against the glass, refusing to break eye contact
DOnt shop at urban outfitters
they literally sold a blood-stained-looking sweatshirt with the name of a college that there was a school shooting at
they sold prescription-drug related accessories trying to make it cute
maybe the universe needs you in a different place right now—i’ve gone strange places in life but i still have a feeling i’ll get where i need to go
i know that i’m exactly where i need to be, because i’m taking care of myself. but i have absolutely no idea what i want to do with my life.
i know i’m only 22 and most people my age are in the same boat, but most people my age at least have a college degree to start with. and i know i can just as easily go back to school, but for what? to be put even further into debt when i don’t even know what i want to do?
the economy, man.
the hugeness of leaving NYC and giving up on an acting career, aka the only thing i ever thought i was sure about in my life, is hitting me full-fucking force.